dance. dance from your heart. *

Saturday, April 30, 2005

GreAt is thE mEasurE of ouR FATHER's LOVE!

Think about His love
Think about His goodness
Think about His grace....
That brought us through

.. ... And Great is the measure of our Father's Love....

annnd... i juz want to have this thought in me foreverrr....

ppl... pls pray 4 me....

to you:i'm sorry... but still i tink i dun deserve sch a 'punishement' from u..
it's too heavy... too pain..

dancing all night long _ *
8:25 PM
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Friday, April 29, 2005

noRmaL vS aBnoRmaL

normal day.. normal week....
will this life onli carries on to be like this...
this normal??? how normal???

normal..abnormal... not very normal afterall...
school, lectures, tutorials n homework...
God, Quiet Time, Bible, Purpose Driven Life...
Friends, chat, laugh, jokes, craps, gossips...
normal? abnormal? not bery normal after all...

friends and family... school and home...
church and heaven... earth and hell....
so far they are... yet near it seems
how long do i need to stay here
can i go to Heaven fast

how is this purpose going to be fulfilled?
have far am i from this purpose God has given me...
i can achieved this goal... this purpose...
but how far am i?
God, help me, will u...

dancing all night long _ *
11:37 PM
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Wednesday, April 20, 2005

it'S mY biRthdAY

hmmm... 3 wholE days dint blog.... tired... no time... n ok.. i admit.. i'm lazy... =p
yet... in that short 3 days, it seems tt 100 things happen... hmmm... good tings of cos... hahaha...

birthday cel3bration!

hmmm.... 17 april... sunday...
happily in church having vocal lessons... shy* she 'dated' mi out.. haha.. told mi the rest wasnt free to celebr8 bdae wif mi lah... so while waiting ..... i was super shocked when i saw Dajin Benji n YuFan lah... haha.. they juz walked in to my church... n my jaws dropped when i saw dem... so the-dint-expect feeling..... i rem myself still in a shock cos at 1st i reali tot they wouldnt b free to celebr8 bdae wif mi lor... especially sum of dem who is working.. haha..

den we went to mrt station to meet Karine, Chye Yan, Puay Yong.. hmmm.... played pool... n Evelyn joined us... went to eat Japanese stuffs in a restaurant at AMK....

we took a lot a lot of fotos.. n surprise again.. i had a piece of pandan cake wif candle by dem... haha....

den den den.. b4 tt.... walking onthe streets

shyin n chye yan n the rest of dem was whispering here n there....

ME: hey... wad ur whispering.... tell mi lah... ur muz b up to sumtink rit.....

Shy:wah man... u noe we r up up to sumtink.. den can u go 1 corner far away n wait for us???????

i was super shock lah.. gt surprise lidat 1 ar??? hahaha... make bdae gal go 1 corner... ok. fine .. nvm... i went n waited for dem in a super far corner... came back, dey gave mi sumtink.... told mi can onli open on my bdae... 12am tt time.. hmm.. ok.. =p

thank you guys.... *Evelyn* *CHye Yan* *karine* *Puay YoNg* *Dajin* *BenJI* *YufAn*
thanks *ARmani* thou u weren't there....
Thanks *SHY* most of all.. for the trouble of planning n stuffs... xin ku ni le... n i love all of u...
AS IN REALLI ALL OF YOU!!!

hmmm.... mon... 18 april...
normal day in sch... =p
met chen loon, his fren.. oops.. i forget his name.. n krin n shy ... we went KTV... haha...

sang songs n stuffs.. had reali a lot of fun lah... haha.. sae jokes n blah...

n i got my bdae present frm ChenlOon... hahaha...

blessed n super happi day as welll......

thank you ppl....

finalli finallli... tue... 19th april...

again.. normal dae in sch.. nt reali normal.... torturous PE lesson..... Went home super early n study foR econs test the next day.... lol... right... no discount ok... thou it's a bdae...

hmm... despite tt, was v happi.. cos my classmates tt i knew for barely 1 mth actualli remembers my bdae.. hahah... good ah...

shy met mi n pass mi present wor.. super touched lah.. cos she went down to city hall all by herself... hmm.. to buy my present... good right.... best fren leh... lol.... but .. she super blur.. forget to take out price tag.. hahhaha....

went home... n received mama's present in a super bright n shiny PURPLE box lah... inside was a lot of...... .... .... ..... .... *Hmmm* nvm.... lolx..... super surprised.. wad a funni mother i have.... yah.. also, she bought mi a healing cream for my legs....

sum of u noe lah.. my legs v ugly 1.. got scars... hahaha... so she bought it for me.. sweet rit?? dun play play ar... hahaha

bro n aunt n mama sang bdae song for mi too... got fruit cake... hehehe...

and aniwae.... the present tt i can onli open on my bdae itself remember? it was a small softtoy.. can record voice 1... n yup.. it was sumtink lidat....

" FEI DE!!! (which means Fat one) HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PEIJUN.. HAPPI BIRTHDAY TO YOU...."

THE CAPS... yes.. it was super loud.... think they muz b shouting..no wonder they gave mi a hint... tt the whole ang mo kio... noe its my bdae ler... hahha...
yeax... my bdae... =p

dancing all night long _ *
8:10 PM
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Saturday, April 16, 2005

biRthdAysSsSss...

wAhAhax.... it has been long since i last blogged huhx.. yahx.. cos v busi with sch work n stuffs... for the past few days....

sch... work.... reached hm n study... homeworks... tutorials.. go thru lectures... slept less den 5 hrs... den go sch again... and thank God for the more den 10hrs sleep today!

hmmm.... i love weekends... c the reason why?

birthday coming.... yippee.... but it seems to me tt tis yr is nth special.... i recalled how i look forward to my birthday months ago as i starts to countdown n stuffs... but tis yr.. feel no excitement...

tis tues... got PE make up lesson.. how funni.... moreover, wed gt test... how 2 enjoy de bdae....

but nvm... hope it will b blessed day aniwae....

sumhow.. sumwhere.. felt v unfamiliar during tis time of the year... for the past 4 yrs... how diff was my bdae spent...

sec 1.... outside sch... at Vista Park... we had cakes... childish us, we played with flour and eggs and colorings.... there was a lot of ppl... sec 1 to sec 2.... primary sch frens to sec. sch frens... received presents.... "memorablily"... we kena complained by sum ppl... sae we noisy n stuffs... sae we dirtied the whole place... we was like super shocked.. not kknowing wad to do at all... naive n childish us remember? finalli.. my super MAN kor kor-Jimmy Cai helped mi SETTLED the whole prob.. haha... outside WGS, probs created, joy lavied... memories carved...

sec 2....School Offical Opening coming.. what to do? Reheasals n stuffs lah.... n.... guess. wad? FUll dress rehearsal SOMEMORE! hahhaa... b4 dat went eat Long John Silver with Ron... n then go back schx... finished the rehearsal.... n there, my buddies in RCY n my seniors all wwent bonkers.. i recalled myself running the whole parade square like no1's business.... 1.5ml water bottle came to me.. n whoosh.. 'they' came over mi... hahha... Joan Ow... RCY senior... even threw ICE.... (duno where she get it aniwae) n threw it INTO my clothes..... there it goes, my yr 2 of birthday in WGS...

sec 3... besides all the sabo's n stuffs in sch... went out to eat wif my buddies.. gt a lot of ppl ar... went to Adrian's mama shop n eat.. it's at Cine... the Yuki Yaki thing if i am nt wrong.. hmm.. excellent time spent... thou there's sum hiccups b4 tt, as in.. frens mood swinging, the time after tt was reali great.. we ate like nv eaten b4.. haha.. n then, we went shopping.... 3rd yr, spent wif my bestest frens in WGS...

sec 4... it was during the common test period... was mugging super hard.. u noe.. o'level.... still r.m.b got social studies.. n studied wif shy.... haha.. long story... den she was doing a lot of NETWORKING... n finalli... make mi so pissed... upon reachin hm... saw a BUNCH of ppl under my blk... wahahha.. there it is.. my surprise...

year 1... Pioneer Junior Colledge... as fun? as memorable.. oh God, let it be....

aniwae... HAPPY N A BLESSED BIRTHDAY TO BAOLING!!!! bestest butts forever... =p

dancing all night long _ *
2:28 PM
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smAshEd cAke on fAcE

hEy.... i'm like super happy today!!! let mi show off.... *ahEm*

i was actuali thinking abt how much i yearn for a happy celebration tis yr... n there..... my bro n sis in church reali made it cum true for mi....

though i had a small cake... super creamy cake... all over my face.... n few strands of hair.... even more cakes into my nostrills..... tell u wad.. i super love tis day.... hahhhaa.... i reali dint expect to have tt surprise by them.. n they made everitink so perfect.... Gina steady lahx.... reali go push tt thing on my face.. wah man... tt feeling of cream n spongy things IN ur nostrills reali nt good lah... hahhaha....

most of all, it's Iwan n Zhiliang hu initiated tis.. reali thank God for these 2 brother.. n Iwan.. i guess.. bought tt Tiramisu.. my favourit!!! hmmm... c.... they noe mi so well.. how fortunate i am rightx.... hmmmm ....

best best best ting.. i received a new bible.... honestly, i expected to received a bible.. but.. not a reali nice 1... from Chongster, my discipleship grp, Iwan, Ben n J.ping.... n my dearest shepherd Kris, bought mi a PINK cover, silver lining, magnet some more de bible wor... ahhahha... small n convenient... exactly wad i nid to bring to sch n stuffs.....

in my previous blog, i THOUGHT i was not going to enjoy tis yr's bdae.. but guess wad.. i'm wrong, not in sch, maybe... but i still have my church bro n sis...my spiritual family.... forever....

tis reminded mi of a fact... a v impt fact... no matter wad the heck happens.... hmmmmmm... my church.... Uthnity... Young adults.... I.d.... Chongster.... Cindesheep, Each n every1 of dem.. will b there.....

I Love u... Kris, Cindy, Abigail, Zhiwei, Vivien, Alex... Gina, Joyz, Mag, Joey, Jann, Esther, Fang ning, Andy.... Benjamin, Iwan, Junping, ZhiLiang, WenDa,WeiJun, Clement, ShiYin, SiewLin, Huimin, Fiona, WanXuan, Cindy, Pris, Michelle, Joy, Fabien, Ben Ben...

Thank You ... Love all of u.. n pls be there when i need all of u....

dancing all night long _ *
12:06 AM
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Saturday, April 09, 2005

wAd thE hElL

oh yah.. so to her i'm juz an idiot lah... c how she describes me as an idiot makes mi super agitated.... y cant she udnerstands? y no 1 understands???

she complains abt how LOUD i was in the morning.. the door, wardrobe n stuufs... it's nt as if she doesnt noe's the door is so loud.. sumtimes she did it herself n i said nth... sumtimes, in fact all the time i didnt do it on purpose... if she reali tiinks tt i was mean enuf to purposely wake her up early in the morning.. den so be it... (i'm nt so bo liao aniwae)

worse cum to worse, i still dun tink it's nice to sae her own sister as an idiot... does she even noes the meaning to it??? nvm... brainless, inconsiderate n most of all.. idiotic... i cld nv imagine sum1 describes mi like this.... even my own sister.. yah.. how much i thank her 4 that... yah... perhaps i'm reali like this??? she knew mi for 17 yrs.. almost.. hu noes she's the 1 tt noes mi best....

dancing all night long _ *
5:22 PM
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Thursday, April 07, 2005

hmmm.... ... ... juz finished bathing... smell so clean... =p
had PE for the last lesson today.. ran 2.4 again. this is the 2nd 2.4 i ran tis wk... sporty right.... actuali is no choice 1... haha.. but anyway.. though tired, was fun as welll.. hmmm...was very happi wif myself when i did inclined pull up... cos i did the most amoung the girls in cls.. wahhaha.. although not reali alot, but ok lah.. satisfactory... =p

anyway... was reali disappointed 2dae... i went for the badminton trials on mon.... i was was quite confident... but not reali VERY confident at the same time lah.. but stilL, i reali hope tt i can get into it ... 2dae checked the list.. my name was not there... was super disappointed... cos i have no back up CCA.. den was at a loss.. n duno wad to join.... most of all, we have to hand in the CCA application form latest by 1230... n i realise i wasnt in the team at 1200...

kan chiong-ly, went to look for the dance teacher... n guess wad.. i'm in dance... yah... it's good lah.. i believe God has plannned this... n as Kris reminded, God is in control...

ydae i went for a play... Twelfth Night by shakespere.... hmmm.... was realli a v bad day..
at 1st in the morning.. i woke up super late at 6.30 n i'm suppose to get out of my house at 6.45... thank God, i made it... after tt, we left sch at 5.20 for the play.. drag here drag there... in the end, we was late for it...after meeting wif classmates at Clarke Quay... we took a taxi there.... it was raining super heavy n in the rain, we hailed for the cab... not forgetting it was the peak hrs.... the weather n stuffs, it took us exceptionally long to get a cab... finaly wen we gt 1... best.... it took us to the wrong place.... DBS arts centre is our destinated place n we ended up in DBS tower...

the motion repeated, in the rain, drenched n soaked, we hailed for cab again.... it was long long long after, den we gt 1.... wen we reached there... it was like super late alr lor....

inside the theatre, i was feeling cold n hungry... machium wanna fell sick that feeling.. thank God for His strength n protection tt reali holds mi on all the way until i reached hm at 1215am..

As for the play, was very good... nice n chim... haha... dun reali understand...
cos...
1stly, the slang was super difficult to figure out..
2ndly, we went there halfway n cant catch the ball in time
3rdly n most imptly, i think i fell asleep towards the ending of the play bcos i was super tired... physically n mentally.....

hahaha.. nevertheless, enjoyed the time... hailing for taxi under de rain n stuffs.. n no doubt, i saw frens hu realli care abt each other... n much more....

some times it's onli thru hiccups n difficult situations where 1 learns n sees another side of human... n another side of life...

dancing all night long _ *
6:52 PM
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Tuesday, April 05, 2005

hahha.... after being suan for not blogging for the past few days... i become more den motivtated to ... JUST BLOG!

alritx... today had a super long day in sch.. lessons.. blahx.... make up lessons... blahx.. n then.. my badminton trial... it was ok for me.. i think i tried my best.... hope to be in the team.. the chance i can get into it was 50/50 i think.. judging from myself... wif my own's performance n other's too.... pray pray pray pray pray.. let God decides lah.... wait for my news 2ml huh!

aniwae... ydae was an excellent day.... it was philip's bdae... my restaurant manager back in Cozi Deli... met up wif *shy* *krin* iwan* n then we sprung up at the cafe to surprise him.. haha... he's like a grandfather!!! saw us den super happy... haha.. of cos.. cos got mi wad!! haha... den we had a lot of food..... ate so much at such a cheap price!!! after that... went out wif karine... shy.. n iwan... supposedly going to the s'pore river, but ended up in the lift to Swiss hotel... haha.. we r suppose 2 go up to the top floorr.. but all of us... super coward... dun dare.. cos we find our actions super 'illegal' in the end, we are at the TOP FLOOR!!! of Esplanade! haha.... took fotos n blah.x.x.x.

enjoyed myself so much.. me n karine espeacially went bonkers.... we skipped ... danced.. smobi-ed.... shout.. whatever.. all the way frm City Hall Mrt to Esplanade.. in another words, along City Link.. hahaha.. she lah.. was the 1 tt dragged mi into all these embarrassment... but... i enjoyed ydae more than anitink else.... so good 2 b wif my sec sch best fren... Karine, shiyin.. they alwaes make my day.. or rather nite, super pleasant... super wonderfull!!! wahahhaha...i'm blessed wif these frens... thank God...

after looking at a short video clip on East Timor, which reflects children, woman n man suffering basically.... at the same time, i was actualli studying Population durin Geo lesson tis few days.... i find sumtink so funny.. y is it tt, in such envt? such situations, whereby natural disasters are often met, scarcity n poverty are always ard dem? n yet, wen fotographs were taken of, they ALWAYS SMILE!... conversely, ppl in the more blessed situation doesnt seems as happy as they are supose to be.. i begin to wonder y is there such a situation.... yuan lai, one will nv b satisfied wif wat they have... n yet, to others, having so little, or a bit more is alr Heaven to dem....

education for ppl like us is indeed sumtink we groan abt everiwhere we go.... This teacher sucks.. tt lessons sucks.. super boring...dun like the sub n stuffs.. yah.. i begin to wonder... if i shld complain.. or reali thank God for tis situation... yes.. remind mi my frens.. if next time i evern starts Complaining on how Fortunate i am..

dancing all night long _ *
8:44 PM
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Saturday, April 02, 2005

went for sch c.i.p 2dae....

super tired... we were like inside tt bunch of newspapers n old clothes loading those stuffs here n there n everywhere....

but overall, it was very fun.. doing it in the rain... playin n throwing those stuffs ard wif all my classmates... crapping and all... yah... it was not a bad day.. =p

den went east coast park wif *cindy* *andy* *benjamin* *wan xuan* *shiyin* *siew Lin* *zi liang* *huimin* *iwan*
we rode bicycle for around 1 hr... n then hang out awhile... n then go home already... it has been so long since i took time off n do this... so relaxing...
tried roller blading for a short short while.. hmm.. canot make it.... slow... clumsy... careless... not confident... blahx.... others can do so well.. so nice.... mayb 1 day i go try that out n reali learnt tt one... =p

after a super long day... i waited for the bus 853 at the nearby bus stop.... after waiting for like almost half an hr.. i realised tt the bus does not operates on sat... disappointed + fustrated, i took another bus to amk.. den change to mrt.. den muz take bus again... during the journey... i look out of the window n see unfamilar places... i felt totally lost n was wondering if that was the corect bus i shld take....finaly.. i was realy relief to see the work Yio Chu Kang Link somewhere near.. goodness.. i was so thankful tt it was the correct bus n all my worries and stuffs juz go...

sudDenly.. i tot abt a life story here...

i juz went up the bus.. though i know it was the corect bus.. i was reali doubting myself if i hav reali looked at the number correctly.... considering all my tiredess n stuffs, even more i think tt perhaps i've made a mistake.... along the way was a lot of unfamilar places, signs, houses n buildings... of cos.... more n more of "worries" came to me.... calling out to me.. haunting mi... despite all tt.. i refused to check out wif de driver or other ppl ard me... shy..? awkward?? too lazy???

for all the mixed feelings i've gone thru during the short period of time in the bus... doesnt it reflects on some of human's flaws tt happens all the time???

recalling how excited i was when i noe tt i m on the right bus... going the right way... i know tt i haf worried for nothing.. cos in the end, it was a fantastic ending... a wonderful start at the same time.. cos i m on another new journey on mrt back to woodlands...

yes... no doubt, in the end, still a blessed ending... but, wldnt it b better if i am more certain, mmore confident abt that path???

yes.. i'll try next time ... (when i go to east coast again i guess)

dancing all night long _ *
10:30 PM
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Friday, April 01, 2005

oh yahx.. aprils fool.. they think it's funny huhx...
it reali scare the wits outta mi wen i received a msg frm ye lian... dat jimmy's or his duno -who died in an accident or sumtinkx.. i was totally shocked n stuffs.. check things out wif tommy n stuffs... den ye lian told mi tt stupid jimmy played tis joke on her... i'm like.. HelLO!!!! is there a nid to or nort???? sucha a "fantastic" "cool" "real" joke .... it "dint" make mi goes screaming... yah.. DINT...

after hanging out wif frens at Lot1... went back to sch for make up Econs lecture... b4 dat... we all took neoprints... was with *Pris* *Janice* *Nicole* *Debra* *Don* *Vip* n *alvin* we like so retarded .... staring at the machine n *smile* hahahx... den wen decorating the pics... i v ji xiao.. go put a duck mouth or sumtink lidat at *alvin's* mouth.. so bad rit... but nvm.. tink he nv blame mi 1.... hahaha...

after dat.. onli mi vip n don went back for make up lesson lor... we were late *oops*.... den tt don still go toilet shit some more... haha... the lecture was ok.. juz tt the last part i dint catch a thing lor... it was cheem for mi... n... hmm... hope sum1 b tt angel 2 explain the entire ting to mi again...

halfway thru the lecture... i was sms-ing him.... n i received a super shocking news.... details, i shall nt reveal ... since its april fool.. i reali cant tell if its a joke or nort.. it was seriously serious.... n i'm like reali lost n stuffs.. till now.. man.. i still duno if it's true or nort.. it's like.... wad if it's reali real.. it wld b reali bad to doubt tt sum1 for things as bad as tis to happen.. oh no.... how i wish it wld rather b a joke...

jit tao after tt sms.. i cldnt even smile properly... i was totally moodless.. it's like super sad...
scallop saw mi n was like.. "hey.. y u so sian... sianness sld b contagious u knoe" i mean.. i know lahx.. but.. cldnt help it lah.. den he v bad.. sms mi during his history lecture....

gooddness.. hope it reali wldnt b tt bad yah....

dancing all night long _ *
6:38 PM
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